Yeah, it’s been some time, eh?

So I somehow fucked up the black/pink layout, and when I came back to use this it has minor errors here and there. GAY. but I have a new layout planned, and designed, we’ll see if I can code it on Tuesday.

Since the last post, I’ve had 2 brand new Sidekicks. I had to send the first back cause it was brokededed. I like it though, it makes me happy. Speaking of happy, I don’t like work. The money is a good ting, and most days it’s alright, but some people there make me want to put my face in a blender. I’ll probably do a worthwhile post when I do the layout or so. maybe, yeah..

I go back to Target starting thursday, but I work during the day this time.
I also have 41 hours my first week O.O;

This could get interesting.

I will comment back to all you people who have commented me, I’m just super lazy. This is a livejournal/bulletin hybrid, so if it doesnt flow perfectly stfu

So after a few days of phonetag, I got through to Target that I’m ready to return to work, and they want me to come in for an interview on Monday. I’m still employed by them, so maybe they just want to make sure I can still.. read and socialize without grunts and gnawing on people’s arms?

Jen also messaged out of the blue “hey I’m in your neighborhood, wanna go donate?” knowing she worked for the bloodbank, I knew what she meant and agreed. apparently I have realllly high iron, it’s like.. 18.7, which is just barely staying on the scale. I lied a bit about my tattoo, it’s been a lot less than a year. But if I dont lie, I could never donate, I always get piercings. It only took 5 minutes, but that was a big-ass needle D:

I ended up being awake until 2 this morning, and I had to get up at 8:30, because I have no idea when Jen wants to go have her oil changed. She wants company you see. After I woke up and I was plugging my phone in to charge I realize there is a chunk from the side missing. it started with the little flappy thing that covers the plug/usb thing, and goes for about half an inch down from there. It’s just gone, no idea where it is, but I can see in my phone, and I know that’s bad. Good thing I dont use that phone when I have a job, amirite?

I wanted a fresh new look : D

So my sleep study didn’t go too well. I didn’t even make it to 24hours. I’ve been out of school and away from having to do that for so long that it just doesn’t come naturally anymore : (
Still looking for a job, but nobody’s hiring these days, especially since school is out. I probably have to wait until September.. AGAIN.

With that said, here’s a nice song for you to listen to, ‘I Wish We Were Older‘ by Metro Station

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Lately I’ve cut so many friends out of my life, and they dont even know it. Like.. In my mind, we’re no longer friends, but outwardly I play along, just looking for something to fight about, something I can twist into some giant fight. Trust me, it will happen.

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and the spider spins it’s web.
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and the spider catches a fly.

• Currently Listening to: Kill Hannah - "Boys & Girls"

So yesterday, Summer wanted me to go for pizza with her and the boyfriend, so I went, and didnt know any of the other 4 people there, I was sooo shy D:
Afterwards, I fell asleep at her aprtment, and when I woke up we decided we’d go and see the Rocky Horror Picture Show, as we hadn’t been in close to a year. I got all dressed up, including a poofy skirt and combat booots. They had a band playing that night too, Tailgunner Joe and the Earls of Slander. Not my type of music, but I wouldnt mind owning their EP.

The show was standard, nothing special happened, but as we were leaving, this old tranny approached me and told me “Nektht time looth the jeanth, okay honey?” translation: ‘next time, lose the jeans, okay?’
I will admit I was a little shocked/angry, but oh well, he was old

• Currently Listening to: Jack off Jill - Girlscout (Sunday Mix)

“One breath left on the phone.
A morning shined like a marble’s eye.
Two red blood cells roll.
So, finally two rings of coal.
You’re running through the wild
Like a trembling needle.
It’ll grow as slow as it can,
Like an apple core dropped in the soil.”
- Xavier St. Valentine

Something new and pretty for summer. I dont think I’ve ever had anything this bright, or spent so much time messing with php. I still think it’s the devil’s language.

• Currently Listening to: WIRES!WIRES! - "XII XXI"

So, BLAMHONEY (see last post) opened up auditions for remix artists. I sent in an application/song,

• Currently Listening to:: BLAMHONEY - GENEOUS FORTURE IN THE GARDEN (PART 1)

The amazing vocalist/guitarist of BLAM HONEY has died.
It’s not a new event, it happened 4 years ago to the day,

Finally re-upgraded to wp.

from cutenews:
When I’m feeling more depressed then I have in a long time.
I don’t know where my life is going, or if I like the direction it’s going, or even IF it’s going.
I’m no longer a kid, I’m supposed to be doing something with my life, I’m supposed to be something by now. Yet here I am, still living at home. Currently unemployed.

Sometimes I think that if my mom were still alive things would be drastically different. She would accept me no matter what I did in love, and love me unconditionally. My dad’s not much help. He caves in to my stepmother, and she doesn’t love me. She says she does, but I know better.

I really want to do something with myself. I don’t want to be a nothing, I want to be a somebody. I want to leave my mark on this world. Even if only a small handful of people recognize me for anything I’ve done, it’s still something. It’s funny really. My entire life I’ve never believed in religion, but now I can understand why people need it. they need to know something is still there, some glimmer of a chance of a better life. where things go the way they should, and heartache and sadness are just echoes of memories. I didn’t mean to get all emo/Tammy Faye, It’s just I’m trying to make sense of it all.